Monday, October 05, 2009

Please keep us in your thoughts

My husband is in the hospital, and is very very sick. We know he has pneumonia, but they don't know how he got it. They think he had swine flu first, and it got worse and turned into this.

When he came home last night, I had my friend Sara come over and watch the kids and I drove him to the ER. We were there for 5 hours and I finally left to come home and get some sleep. he was admitted last night, and i was able to see him for maybe 20 minutes this morning. I had our youngest daughter with us, and I had to put a mask on her. Myself, I had to put on a gown/gloves and a mask. They won't let me bring the kids to visit at all because he is so sick and they don't want the kids to catch anything.

He has been on Oxygen all day and his levels are not getting better at all. They're going to put him on 100% O2 if he doesn't improve. IF that doesn't help, then he will be put under and intubated. He told the Dr that he would be too claustrophobic to be awake, so they're going to keep him sedated and "unconscious" till he gets better, if it comes to this.

I feel lost, helpless, scared...everything. He's supposed to be home right now, and I feel like part of me is missing. his truck is outside and I hate looking at it because it reminds me that he isn't home, but lying in a hospital bed 10 minutes away. I don't know what to do, and I am so afraid of losing my best friend. The Dr told him if he hadn't come in, he would have died in a couple days! He's the sickest patient there right now, and this is a BIG hospital. I know I have to keep strong for the kids, and act as normal as possible, but I'm really struggling to keep it together. I can't help but think of the worst. I know that isn't healthy, and good for me or the kids, but I just can't help it.

Please keep him in your thoughts, and myself and the kids. I hope that the tide will turn tomorrow or tonight and we will see some sort of improvement.

I'll update as needed.

9PM update: Just talked to him and apparently is O2 stats are up slightly. So they probably won't have to intubate, thankfully. He is feeling slightly better, and managed to keep down some food. He's not out of the woods yet though, but I am just happy he is feeling somewhat better, even if only a little bit.


Susan said...

So sorry to hear about hubby but it sounds like he's improving a bit which is good news. Hang in there!

Thia said...

I am a new reader and just catching this Tuesday morning. I am praying!

cynthia said...

Thinking good thoughts for BarrytheBlade .... here's to a swift and complete recovery.


Karen said...

Oh my goodness, I am just now reading this. I am so sorry. You all are in my thoughts and prayers. ((HUGS))