Monday, March 29, 2010

Four Days And Counting

Well, moving day is certainly creeping up on me, we're at four days and counting till the BIG DAY!!

It kind of hit the kids and I this morning at breakfast. Suddenly there was excitement in the air at breakfast, little whispers and squeals about moving in four days. Questions about when their beds would be taken apart, and how would we pack all the rest of the stuff. I really have confidence that the packing will be done by Friday morning. There isn't that much left at all to do, especially since I have thrown away SO much stuff. I have filled up our household size dumpster 3 times. Yes, you read that right, THREE times! I still have it and will keep it for another couple weeks because there will be residual stuff left here, including some dressers I have to demolish yet.

I can't believe that this journey I started back in January is almost done. This house was the 2nd house I looked at, but I didn't want to put an offer on it because I was set on having bigger bedrooms. But after many failed showings, the houses just not being right for us, my realtor surprised me Feb 11th and brought us back one time. I was feeling defeated at this point, as a house I had put an offer on had fallen through because the seller filed bankruptcy, so when we went to look at it again, I put an offer on it. The offer was accepted and the house was mine on February 12th. And now I am so incredibly excited. This gorgeous house is mine, I can call it mine and do what I want to it.

Tomorrow starts the flurry of deliveries and appointments. I am so excited to see all the stuff I bought put into their rightful spots, and I most certainly can NOT wait to show pictures of everything!! I have deliveries scheduled for Tuesday, Wednesday, and Saturday. We are all so excited to have our stuff in the house.

I am a little afraid of Thursday night. It will be our very last night sleeping in this house, the very same way Barry left it...despite all the chaos with boxes in it. There will never be another night in this house again, never another night with my bed set up the way he did it. As much as I don't like living here, I will miss it because it was our last home with Barry. I know this wouldn't be a forever home, as it is older and just a rental, we would have moved eventually regardless of what happened (as we were planning on moving to PA this summer), but it is still going to be an emotional time for us. I don't know if it will hit me so much on Thursday, but perhaps Thursday night as I lay down. And most definitely Friday when the movers take away everything. What's funny is that the house won't even be empty when the movers leave, as I have Habitat for Humanity coming next Wednesday to pick up all the old furniture. Perhaps it will really hit me on Friday night as I lay down for the first night in my new house, but only time will tell.

Honestly, my biggest fear is that he won't come with us to the new house. I am scared I won't feel his presence there, surrounding us with his love. I can feel him here from time to time, I know he's watching over us. I just want him to come with us, to move to the new house with us. Or perhaps he'll haunt and terrorize the new tenants...hahaha. That's so him too ;-) I really do just want him to come with us, and help make our new home a peaceful home as well.

Back to packing!

1 comment:

Chrissy said...

Girl!, he will always be w/you!! he is linked to you forever... I know my husband was w/me witnessing the relationship I had... and probably shaking his head and thinking "wth is the matter w/you?" lol....It might be nice to have a journal/photo album of the new house- a new chapter... for all of you... Everything will work out believe me...