So, I may have mentioned in my last blog post that I was going to take up running. I did day one on September 13th, the day A started Pre-K.
I have kept up with it, and this week started my second week. Day one I completed yesterday. The running was upped 30 seconds each time, so it was a bit of an adjustment. I know I will get used to it though. And I am LOVING it!! I love running.
It exhausts me, it makes me sweat, it makes me breathe heavy, it makes me sore, it makes me want to give up, but I keep plodding away as my feet hit the pavement. It is so hard sometimes to keep pushing myself, to make myself keep going just a little further till I hear that familiar bell on the iPod touch telling me it is time to walk again. But the fact of the matter is, I still do it, and I still push myself.
I have lost 10lbs since I started running. Yes, you read that right, 10 pounds in a week. I haven't changed too much of my eating habits, but I have cut out a lot of sweets. Ok, I take that back, last night I ate a huge king size snickers bar, and at the Mariners game last Friday I pigged out on hot tamales, and had McDonald's for dinner. But seeing as I rarely buy candy bars, I figured it was ok. A treat once in awhile is ok, and as long as I don't keep them in the house, I'm not tempted to eat them.
Yesterday at my MOPS group, one of my good friends Angela commented that she didn't even recognize me. She hasn't seen me since the beginning of june, so I guess I changed even over the summer. WOW!! (Angela was not at the hospital when Barry died, but came to the house that afternoon, and she lives an hour away, and cooked us all dinner, staying for hours along with a few other girlfriends of mine. She helped orchestrate a lot of the meals we got through my MOPS group, helped with food at the funeral etc etc. She was wonderful and I'll forever love her for that).
I am absolutely loving the fact that this weight is pouring off of me. It makes me want to work harder. I was looking at a picture of myself the other day, and I was amazed how different I look compared to a year ago. Perhaps I will share that one day...I look like a completely different person. I was reflecting on that, and thinking how much Barry would just love how I looked right now. He loved me at this size...he wouldn't be able to keep his hands off me ;) (now, and years ago when I was this size before I gained all the weight). I wish Barry could enjoy this new body of mine. I do know that he can see me, and is still around though, because I saw an orb hovering over me in a picture I took the other night. It was plain as the nose on my face, just sitting there above my left shoulder.
Speaking of seeing the orbs...I really am not so sure how I feel about that. It makes me so happy to know that he is still around, and gives me a sense of comfort knowing he is watching over us. But on the other hand, it makes me sad. That being because he is STILL here, and I can't see, feel, or hear him. Am I supposed to be content knowing that he is? I wonder if he is shaking his head at me, all this new stuff I am doing, all the new experiences we are having. Would he be happy I bought the house? Bought a new 2011 Honda Pilot? He'd probably tell me to stop sitting around and "go clean his house" lol. Either way, I guess it is a big comfort knowing he is sticking around. He always did say he would come back to haunt me. And that he did, but in a good way. Just wait, I'll now have some really creepy experience to blog about soon because I jinxed myself haha.
Two weeks from today, I will be in Florida. We leave in 13 days!!! So with that, I say goodbye today, because I have a million things to do. No running today, as my shins are a bit sore and I don't want to over-do it (I'll probably hit the elliptical later). Errands, errands and more errands today. Plus...I NEED to start packing.
I am sure you're all wondering...yes, I am taking the lap top with me to Florida. I've figured out how to tether my blackberry to my laptop so I will have internet access to blog. Speaking of that...tell me WHY in 2010 do hotels not have WiFi? Especially at Disney World? WHY????????