I don't know what to write.
I'm busy being mom, mommy, mama, widow, Joanna, "wife" ?, and all else that entails who I am.
I haven't noticed how it happened, but it seems stress has crept into my life again without my knowing. I've been having tension headaches in my jaw and facial area. Quite honestly, I think I am clenching my teeth without realizing it. The headaches aren't THAT bad, but there is tension in my jaws, my face and the back of my head. I probably do it when I am sleeping. It happens at random times during the day too.
I did have all four of my wisdom teeth removed in March, so I am hoping it has nothing to do with that. I don't think so, as the tension has just started happening in the last few weeks.
Obviously something is bothering me, and I'm sure its just grief...as always.
I miss Barry, but I am so busy most of the time, I don't have time to think about him.
Actually, I FORGOT about the 10th. Can you believe that? I didn't remember until it yesterday when it hit me that the anniversary date had actually passed. I've almost forgotten a couple of times, but have remembered during the day. I am shocked at myself. How could I forget that? I am not upset about it, just in awe that I could actually forget such an important day.
I really don't feel like writing at the moment. I need a hot shower, I need to get dressed, I need to get out of the house.